Tuesday- FEEL: FULL. SO much food!
Wednesday- FEEL: Frustrated and tired.
Thursday- FEEL: Hopeful.
Friday- FEEL: Grateful.
Saturday- FEEL: Enriched.
Sunday- FEEL: MAD.
There's this week in feelings. I'm trying to record my mission better, but the end of the day I can't remember what happened at the beginning. It all kind of blurs together!
Sister Fuller and I had an interesting week full of free blueberry pickings, fasting, and LOTS of praying.
One of the humbling things about a mission is knowing that you are acting in an area as if Christ were. You are doing what He would do. Also knowing that comes with the knowledge that He wouldn't place you in a place without a PLAN. That's what we are searching for, is His plan for the Hanover Area.
I feel Him humbling me. This seriously cannot be done without Him! I feel badly that I am frustrated at times, my patience is growing. His revelation is coming to us like we are walking through thick fog. You can only see the next three steps ahead of you, and until you take those three steps you can't go further. Once you do take the three steps ahead, you can see the next three steps.
It's happening.
Sometimes our answers to prayers teach us things. They humble us. He gives us trial for our better.
D&C 122:7 "know thou, my daughter, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good."
I've experienced this many a time in my life, but never before in a missionary sense. It's neat to feel His love so strongly for me just by reading the scriptures.
I cling to them for advice, a road map of some sort.
Today I read in Alma about the Anti Nephi-Lehi's burring their weapons, being an example to the Lamanites, and through giving their life brought more people into the fold. They recognized that God's plan isn't always ours, that He knows best, and we must do as He commands.
Alma 26 - Ammon reflects on his mission. He reflects on how much he put into the work, and the fruits of his labors. He glories in the Lord and knows that he followed his plan!
Alma 26:27 "now when our hearts were depressed, and we were about to turn back, behold the Lord comforted us, and said: Go among thy brothren the Lamanites, and BEAR WITH PATIENCE THINE AFFLICTIONS, AND I WILL GIVE UNTO YOU SUCCESS."
If that wasn't an answer to my prayers, I don't know what was!
We have been praying and fasting this week to know what it is we need to do, and how to do it. It's hard because I love these people with EVERYTHING I have!!! I love them! But my lessons are more chit chats, they are bored during the lessons. They aren't progressing and haven't been for transfers. We are going to do what I feared: we have to drop some of them. It breaks my heart, but I know that just because they aren't ready NOW doesn't mean they won't be later.
It's a huge leap of faith because we'll be left with two investigators. We have no idea what we'll fill our schedule with, but Sister Fuller and I have faith that the Lord will fill it. We will be where He wants us to be. "I will go where you want me to go" is very literal. I know that as we make room for those who are prepared, the Lord will show us the way. It's going to take a while to get things back moving, but it'll be better than it is now!
Miracles:
Lisa's toddler got an ear infection. Lisa is a NEW investigator from last transfer. She asked for a blessing. Her daughter would FIGHT to take her medicine! After the blessing look at the text we received:
AMAZING!!! I love how the Lord answers prayers and KNOWS US!!
Alma 26:37 - "we see that God is mindful of every people"
He knows us. He knows Bella. He knows Lisa!
Another miracle:
Driving home from church Sunday with Megan, we drove under a rain cloud and more rain poured than I've ever seen in my life! We hydroplaned to the right and hit the guard rail right as the Connecticut River started. We pulled over and the axle was bent. The guy that saw it stopped behind us. He was shocked that we were ok and that I wasn't crushed! God watches over his missionaries!
Miracle #3:
Everyone has blueberry trees. Everyone gives blueberries to the missionaries. New recipe:
Blue berries
Fetta
Olive oil
S&P
Fresh basil
OH MY GOSH it's so good. All local. All free for missionaries haha! I love Vermont.
{My area is in the scriptures!!}
{White River Junction}
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